The thing is, no matter how hard you run or how full your calendar is, your fears and insecurities are always just paces behind you. With one month left of my junior year, I made the tough decision to withdraw from pursuing a degree that I wasn't even paying for. It was hard. I was disappointed in myself. I was lost, and rather than the expected sense of freedom upon committing to my decision, my mental health suffered for a while. Soon after, I discovered Transcendental Meditation and attended an Ayahuasca retreat in search of much needed clarity. What a time to be alive!